I thought about you today.....

I thought about you again today…..it’s like I can’t help myself. I used to be able to get out of this depression mode that you put me in…but now it’s as if I’m never normal, I’m always depressed…because of you….

I wonder what would happen if I just told you. Just put it out there let you know how I was truly feeling. Would you reject me? Would you share the same feelings?

Sometimes I just sit and look at your picture and wonder what you’re doing. Wonder if you think about me even half as much as I think about you. Then I try to snap out of it, tell myself “GET OVER IT PRINCE! How could you be so sprung over someone who doesn’t even know you exist???”

You see because to you I'm friend, and that’s all you see when you look at me. The real me, the lover side of me can’t be seen with your eyes….

So I guess a part of me is never truly alive when it comes to you….

It’s the worst feeling in the world to know I’ll never be able to be myself around you, and tell you how much I care for you….love you.

The sad part is that I truly do love you. Your mind, your walk, your weird personality, your imperfections…

So I guess I’ll just sit here, thinking about you. Thinking about what could be.

Thinking about the hugs, kisses, and anniversaries we’ll never share….